This was originally posted on Instagram: May 29, 2016. I wanted to share it with you here…
Aren’t you worried?
After four years and seven foster babies, I’ve heard this question a lot in reference to my biological kids.
Yes I am worried…
I worry the hard goodbyes of fostering will negatively impact them, that they will spend years in therapy because their mom goes crazy trying to fit the work of fostering into our already hectic life, or that they will somehow feel left out in the process.
But it worries me more that they could grow up thinking life revolves only around them and their comforts. I worry that I could create a mostly calm and orderly life of us here, where most of the time things mostly go their way. Because it would be pretty easy to do… And then they might not learn about loving well when its inconvenient. They might miss the joy of sacrificial service, the satisfaction of obedience to God’s call, the giggles, snuggles, and delight of helping someone in need.
I worry, but I have found our God to be faithful. If God calls us to something, He will see us through it, and that has been our experience. Our foster journey has been filled with chaos and grief and frustrations, but also so much joy, so much love, and so many blessings.
We are really intentional with our kids in how we approach life as a foster family. I’m ok with them being inconvenienced, but I also do want to protect them as much as I’m able. So we talk a lot. I let them ask questions and as much as I can, I answer them (age appropriately of course). We make baby books for our babies- I send one with the baby and we keep one which I keep out so my kids can look at them often (and they do). They shop with us and I let them pick out outfits and books and toys for the baby. Together, we pray daily for all our babies. We plan quality individual time and family time.
So yes, I’m worried, but at the same time, I’m really not. For now, for this season, this is what God has for us, and He is faithful.